i wouldnt blog if shiela didnt kinda bug me ta. hahaha.

it's fasting month and i really cant wait fer raya:) mum got me the baju(s). so bro and me will be in hot pink, mum and dad would be in purple this year. cool eh? hahha. so went over ta nenek's house ta breakfast ytd. which wasnt exactly a good thang cause i ended up in a fight with mum. it was ma mistake, i have ta admit. she's really mad at me and i feel really really bad and cried cause i really didnt mean ta say wad i said. i've been too stressed up with work and im so sorry i let ma anger out on you. messaged Zara but look wad i've got.

me : i fought with mum and now she wont even talk ta me.

zara : wad about ?

me : cause i accidently called her ....... i really didnt mean ta.

zara : and you da apologise alreadly ?

me : no. cause she told nenek than am not her daughter at all.

zara called but i hung up on her. i wasnt in the mood.

zara : adek, call me now.

me : don't want. i dont feel like talking. she's in the car.

zara : you da ckp sorry ke tk ??

me : she dont even wanna look at me ! how ta say sorry.

zara : no matter wad you make the first move !! she's ya mum.  adik, dont be ego with ya own parents will you !!!

she was pissed with me. i didnt dare ta reply. i wish i could run and just hide. damn. hee.

so Zara somehow knew me well enuf. i know i could never hide ma feelings from her. called Traders fer last minute reservations today.

me : kak, last minute rsvn.

zara : ferget it. dek, finish wad time. mge me.

me : huh ! tknk ah

zara : see you later. dont run, i'll wait.

me : okay ah than.

so after work met kak Zara. so she talk ta me like how an elder sister would normally do. nagging ! but i love the way she told me this in the train.

" adek, i stress ah. help me can? " i tell you this eh, i tawu i dont have time fer you nor do i have fer maself but please know, you're important ta me. i dont want you ta turn out like how the other teenage girls are. i'll slap your face i warn you. amirah, i love you like ma own blood okay bimbo. i love you more than anything else in the world, *giggles* "

and i went, " i know, i love you too irritating woman. im glad ta have you in ma life. seriously. i love you laaa !

and zara went " i thank god too fer having a pain in ma arse girl like you in ma life who knows her way around me. hey, i love you more than you love me biatch.

hahahhaaha. and i went, " I LOVE YOU ZARA SALLAH ! Traders might hate you fer leaving, but i love you more than those people who hates you. don't stress2 laa. go home, go bathe and pray. it'll make things better.

and zara said " chi bai ! but thanks. muacks. and she hugged me. hahaa.

will updates soon okay. loss fer words. 

muacks !