i feel so shit and crap, it's hurts me seeing her cry. i cant bear fer everything ta end just like that. things was way than perfect for the both of you. why this... again? im not angry at you, but it just pisses me off after wad you texted. it's your happiness you're fighting fer, not mine. remember that. yes, parents are important. i totally understand. im not telling you ta go against them but the very least you could do is, talk ta them and explain... you tell me you cant bear hearing her cry. but wad are you doing about it? i honestly hate seeing ma sister having dark rings below her eyes every morning. and i hate trying ta make her laugh and pretending ta be happy in front of me when she's not. sheessh! let me tell you how much heart breaking she's feeling yogaraj! you were her favourite hello and the hardest goodbye, gedit?!! if i can knock ya head and put some sense inta it, i freaking would laa.

and ta you ma love, no matter wad happens. i told you once, i'll tell you once more. i'll always be here fer you even thou i can you know, piss the shit outta you at times, but yes, i'll be ya shoulder ta cry on and i'll bring more tissues along with me ( you know i nvr have tissues in ma bag, haha ) ta wipe every single teardrop of yours. bare this in mind. if you're meant ta be together, he will be back someday, somehow. but if things dont turn out the way you imagined it ta be, let it go. be strong. i promise, i'll be ya light when in time of darkness. i love you babe. xoxoxo.

i feel so bad thinking wad i almost did ta viki. im so so sorry love. really, being so harsh towards you and stuff. *slapsface* amirah, learn how ta control ya temper! gosh. no no, i dont have a temper, like wad ayun said. talk all you want, but push that red button and you're gone. hahas. im not that bad kn! hmps. hees. 

okay, so lets just put all the unhappiness aside, tomorrow's friday. wuhoo! and and, im going out on sat. weeeeheeee! with with, ma annoying yet loveable sister amy emelda, shah and duh, ayun. heees. so so fun kn. i know(: i love love you people oh so veryvery much.

and when 27/04 comes, i hope i wont get nightmares. hahahas. so sis, applied fer ya freaking leave already?? hahaha, we're gonna have a mother and daughter outing! errrrr, like wth right. i know, fer me. cause i'll end up being bash right, left, center by mummy and you sis. but you know how much i actually love you right? in case you ferget. cause i totally understand how silly you actually are. i'l repeat maself once more okay. DEAR AMY EMELDA. I, NUR AMIRAH, love you so so much that even if i can kill you at times, i would(: hees. sweet kn? *heartmelts* hahas, kidding laa, muacks.

you know you love me, 

goodbyes.